Life is so fast-paced and it is so easy to get caught up in it and lose sight of what is realistic. In doing this, you set the bar a little too high for yourself. I have experienced this first hand and when I did not meet that expectation I had for myself, the feeling of failure hit me like a ton of bricks. “Getting a two on an Advanced Placement test is not the worst thing in the world. ” That is what I told myself after I viewed the results for my Advanced Placement English Language and Composition exam.
Even though I told this to myself over and over, all I kept thinking is “l have failed. ” I had failed not only the expectations of the test itself, but those of myself and, most importantly, my teacher. The results were devastating and I felt like I would never be able to cope with the failure. I Just continued to beat myself up about the awful score. There is no doubt in my mind that my teacher prepared me completely for the exam, so how in the world did l, fail him in this way? Along with failure, I felt embarrassment.
I began to think of al the bright students in my class who had probably scored fives and sixes while I sat amongst the lowest if the low with a measly two. I had received texts and calls from classmates asking about my score, most of which got ignored because I refused to speak openly of such a failure. Finally, stopped miserably moping around my house. This change came when I read on a social networking site about a friend who had, to her own surprise and dismay, received a two as well. I was not alone! And most importantly, it was not the end of the world.
I had a whole year of high school ahead of me that would include many other Advanced Placement examinations. I would Just have to work a million times harder on future exams than I worked on this exam and I indeed could and would receive a three or higher. With this experience, I have learned that things do not always turn out the way you have planned or how you think they should. Things are destined to go wrong and they will not always get fixed. Some broken things are meant to stay broken and most bad events and occurrences only foreshadow better ones.