I’ve learned that goodbyes will always hurt, pictures never replace having been there, memories, good or bad, will bring tears and words can never replace feelings. There were many things I wanted to write before writing on the word goodbye, but life takes a man to where fate has decided and It never goes In the neat little order we desire. I never thought that saying goodbye would be so hard. I am 14 but life has taught me one thing that u might forget the place where you were born but u wont forget the place or people who made you feel so special. I have to accept that for every hello oh say, there’s a sad goodbye.
I remember it was jejune 2008 1 was Jolted into real life. Sometimes being strong means being able to let go, but I wasn’t strong to concede that the time is up and finally I have to say goodbye to the one who made me laugh, who made me realize that I was better than anyone, who made me feel like a princess, who let me sleep in her arms when I was all alone and who spent her nights to tell me stories about prophets. It was 18 June 2008, it seemed to me that everything around me had stood idle, there was silence because my ears were not dead to accept what they just heard, and my mind repeated the words- grandmother has passed away.
I went to my home town for her funeral, she was cold because she was dead, I couldn’t believe that she was the same lady I met a month ago. Her lips were silent with no smile, her eyes were closed with no spark, and her heart was in her chest with no beat of life and a body with no soul. I finally had to say goodbye forever because according to the law of nature there is no hope of meeting her again in this world and I’ll never get a chance to tell her how much I loved her. I might meet her in the next world, in the life after death but not until my heart is beating and my soul is within me.
I wish that GOD give human one last chance to meet with the one they love and if that was possible I would only say her that “I’ll miss you forever, I’ll miss you always, Goodbye is so hard, but I’ll say It anyways”. For the first time In my life I felt real pain, real heartache. It was 5:30, I was hit with the truth, It was Wednesday, my grandmother died, It was 6th month of 2008, a part of me died. I knew that this moment would come In time. That I have to let her go and watch her soul fly. I knew she won’t come back but even after 12 months I was dying inside.
Even today when I am writing this I am searching for words to define my feelings. I always try hiding my emotions but eyes don’t lie. I guess there’s no easy way to say goodbye. It’s weird, you know the end of something great is coming, but you want to just hold on, Just for one more second Just so it can hurt a little more. Oftentimes we say goodbye to the person we love without wanting to. Though that doesn’t mean that we’ve stopped loving them or we’ve stopped to care. Sometimes goodbye is a painful way to say I love you.
Once I said goodbye with no hope of meeting again, and life taught me how hard It Is but to say goodbye with a little tad of hope Is even more painful because you never know that the candle of your hope will keep burning or fade In the world of darkness and despair. There is nothing in the world that compares to saying “goodbye. ” The the hope that this is not the last goodbye. The hope that keeps us going, keeps our heads high as we wait for the next time; if that next time comes. Some people don’t hind that saying goodbye is such a big deal, probably because they have never had to do so.
We laughed until we had to cry, we loved right down to our last goodbye, but over the years we’ll smile and recall, for Just one moment- we had it all. I remember it was 3rd April 2010, I walked last time through the gates of the place I spent seven most tremendous years of my life. My school although it has four walls but has future of thousands of minds. My school- CONVENT, where I met with the people who belonged to the same world like me but think in their own way and live in world full of love and care, moreover in search of peace.
I remember my first nun, sister Magdalene who taught me how to forgive, how to care and most importantly how to say goodbye not only to humans but to regret, despair and loneliness. It was a pleasant morning but however I was surrounded by fear of losing some special friends who held their hands when I needed them the most. I said goodbye to them in an unbelievable way, I was not quite sure about what I was saying but I knew it was the time to finally say goodbye to them and move on with a new life. “The loss of friend is like that of a limb.
Time may heal the anguish of the wound, but the loss cannot be repaired. ” If saying goodbye hurts so much, why do we say goodbye? Because it hurts so much more to keep holding on to something that isn’t there.. However, if you look at saying goodbye as a new hope, things begin to brighten up. You have a hope that you will someday be able to see them again. Saying goodbye may bring a great deal of sadness, but the amount of sadness depends on your hope in seeing them again. It is the end of something simple and the beginning of everything else.