There is one situation that I have personally been In that made me question the statement “Life is unfair”. Some things Just don’t seem right, Like they shouldn’t be. They say that “everything happens for a reason” but does It really? It had felt Like the universe was against me when I had my heart completely broken. I thought “What did I ever do to deserve this? ” and everything Just seemed so unfair, that it would happen to me at that particular time. It felt like there was no way out. To this day, my heart still feels as if is in a million pieces and it seems as nothing will ever go right.
I always question my faith and how I could have stopped this from happening and I constantly blame myself. I never knew how powerful love could really be until I met this one boy. He made me the happiest girl In the world and I couldn’t have asked for anything better. Most of the time I felt like I never even deserved him. He was so kind and caring and everything about him made me fall for him so quick. I never ever pictured myself in a situation like this. I didn’t think it was possible to ever feel that way about someone. I surprised myself. Things were going so great it almost seemed too good to be true.
Shortly after, I found out that I was right; It was too good to be true. Things went spiraling downhill fast. That’s when I started to think that life was unfair, at the beginning. Now after a month later, I really think that. This boy had started slowly distancing himself away from me. He started making up excuses of why he didn’t want to be with me anymore and why he felt it wasn’t going to work out. The way he expressed his lost feelings for me cut into me like a knife. His words really affected me and still do. I could tell this wasn’t good.
But I figured I would Just recover from It and get my way Like I always do. I figured I would Just use my magic way of words to change his mind. I was so wrong. This time It Just wouldn’t work. He wouldn’t budge. He made up his mind and I was convinced there was nothing more I could do. I have the personality to never give up. I will fight for what I want until the very end. So that’s what knew I had to do. Was going to fight my way back Into his life. I was so positive the whole time, because in situations Like these, things always seem to ark out for me so I really wasn’t that worried.
The more I talked to him about us, the more crushed got. I didn’t understand why this was happening and that was the hardest part. I still think everyday how I managed to let something so great slip between my fingers. Vive never wanted something so bad, and I was determined to get it. I did everything I possibly could. I did everything from talking to him about giving me another chance to praying to God. Nothing seemed to work. Nothing changed, and no progress was made. I was completely torn apart. It was eating me alive.
I always fight my own battles until I win, and the fact that this situation was one I couldn’t win, really hurt. It hurt because it mattered. Since I am a genuinely happy and positive person, I still haven’t given up on him. I will continue to try, because I know this is what I want and need, and I will never give up. The thought of me trying after all of this and everything that has happened, really pushes me forward and makes me have hope and faith that this will work out for me. With all that being said, will turn out to be false in the near future and prove to me that it isn’t unfair at all.